This week's truths

So one my one night of giving in turned into a weekend of not really tracking or trying. Luckily I was fairly active that weekend. So when it came to weigh in time, I stayed even steven. Which I was happy about! I mean I would love to have lost, but when you eat bad then a 0 week turns out to be quite an accomplishment. So last week was better, I still wasn’t as strict as I have been being, but I kept up the exercise and most days stayed on track. I had a friend’s baby shower on Saturday and I let myself enjoy it. Almost a little too much since I had that yucky ate too much/full feeling in my stomach. Yesterday was weigh in and I was down 1.4! Woohoo!

I am always surprised by the people who do ww and they don’t stay for the meetings. I don’t mean missing one or two cause we all know life gets busy, but week after week they drive to ww go in, weigh in and leave. To me, I am like I am already here let me see what they have to say. Last night was a good night to stay. Our leader teaches several different classes at different locations. She had asked a member from another class to come and talk to us about her weight loss journey. This is her 4th go at ww. This last time she came in at 500 pounds and her doctor had told her she either had to lose weight or he wouldn’t be able to treat her anymore. That was 4 ½ years ago, today she is down 227 pounds. It was very emotional to hear her speak about how ww/losing weight has literally saved her life. She even said that she has no idea how she got to where she was. This year she said she hasn’t really lost weight but the bonus is that she hasn’t gained and she hasn’t quit. She knew if she quit where she is headed- right back up that scale. So no matter the monthly costs for membership, she was going to continue to come and be at the meetings get the support she needed to keep on her journey. She even echoed the senitments in my last post that she will always struggle with this. It was such a good reminder that we have to keep moving/looking forward, because to give up and turn around is only going to hurt our bodies and ourselves more. We are only cheating ourselves of the life we could lead.

I have had some tough moments this past week. I really wanted to eat out one night and I started doing my nutritional information search. I get so disgusted by what I see. The points that it costs me (really the calories and fat) is disheartening that I can’t just go and eat mindlessly like before. I settled for making dinner at home then going to get some ice cream. I got the sugar free fat free and it tastes decent enough, but it wasn’t the double chocolate chunk that I wanted or the delicious smore type that my husband got. We sat there and ate our ice cream and I watched all these people come and get huge scoops of their favorite and I was bummed. I will never be able to be like that. Now granted I don’t know what these people do, maybe they run marathons though it didn’t look like it or maybe this is their one treat a month. Who knows, but it is hard for me to come to grips with the fact I can not reach or maintain my goal and be able to go out or grocery shop and mindlessly get whatever. Maybe if I can train myself to run 5 miles everyday- maybe then. For now, I guess I will continue on my ww way, cause I have already made great strides and I don’t want to quit and turn around knowing what the other holds.

Next week we are going on vacation. It is going to be hard, because there is no option for making my own meals or really even bringing anything other than a couple snacks. Granted there should be opportunities to eat well, but there will be plenty and I do mean plenty of chances for me to eat bad – really bad. Luckily there is also chances for me to work out. Right now my plan is to do well for breakfast and lunch and be less lenient at dinner. I mean it is vacation it is the after vacation part that I need to be concerned with. I am already planning on how to get back on track once we return and possibly begin a jogging training program for our return.