Keep on keeping on

Last week was a good week weight loss wise. I was down 1.6 for a total of 15.2. That is great! I am so close to reaching 10% which is the first major goal weight watchers has you strive for.

I am struggling with exercise this past week. The weather has turned cold here and it has started getting dark early. This means that the time I used to go for my walks it is now dark. I 'could' go right when I get home but after being at work all day I don't want to rush in grab my son and rush back out. I want to be able to enjoy some time with him. We have a treadmill but it seems to stop for no reason a lot. I will be running and slow down to a walk then it stops, then even as I continue walking or running it stops. By the third time I give up and just stop. I did go this weekend and purchase a new cardio dvd. All the cardio I have is from the 90s and it is really hard to focus on the exercises if you are laughing at the people.

Today is weigh in day and I am hoping for some progress probably not as good as last week, but I am thinking I should be down. We shall see!

I inspire myself

I continue to struggle with continuing on. It is an effort to log and track everything you eat. It stinks to have to say no or you don't say no then you have the guilt of indulging. One of the many things that is so hard about having a weight problem is that you have a problem with food and your emotions. Whether it is bored, happiness, sadness, busyness, or just plain gluttony. You continue to have these emotions every day all day. There isn't a magic switch to turn off and say nope I am not going to feel my trigger emotion. I am not going to ever have glutenous urges to gorge myself on a dozen cookies.

I struggle with exercise- I got in two days of walking last week. I can blame it on a million different things, but the truth is I am not making it a priority that it needs to be. It is the "secret" to weight loss along with what you eat. One or the other can only do so much but together they can get you where you want to be.

All in all, I think last week went ok. I did my weigh-in on Wednesday cause I was sick on Monday. After our trip, I had only gained .4 lbs. Which believe is quite an accomplishment! Where we went had yummy free cookies all day every day. And I love me some chocolate chip cookies. I did work out a couple times early in the morning, but I kept waking up my son which meant that my husband had to wake up. Not that he complained. I even was able to run for 20 min on the treadmill I couldn't believe and I probably could have gone longer, but my feet hurt and that was already a huge improvement over anything I have done before. I usually run 5 min then walk 3 and run 5, walk 3 run 5- for a total of 15 min running. I did good with eating on plan through Saturday which may or may not be close and then yesterday not so good. I also got super hungry yesterday which I think led to cravings that I just didn't control very well.

Today is weigh-in. Who knows what the scale will show! I hope it shows a nice low number.

Exercise will be hard this week as I am going to be out of town. But I will do what I can. I do not want to give up and quit. I do not feel equipped to go it on my own. I need to stay in the game.