I gave in...

So I said I was going to be truthful. Last night I had some serious cravings. Not for anything in particular but just for food I shouldn’t have. What’s worse is I gave in. I am beating myself up for it when I just need to let it go. What did it start from? I didn’t want to track lunch. Not that I did bad at lunch I actually ate pretty well I think, I just didn’t feel like taking the time to figure it all out. If I am being truthful it is draining to always count points and ultimately calories and fat. But this is my life – this is what works.

I was discussing weight loss with a friend the other day and I compared being overweight and trying to lose it to alcohol or cigarette addiction. Now I realize alcohol addiction is very serious. Both of those have horrible harmful effects on your body. So does being overweight. The strain on your body and heart is documented. I, and anyone who is significantly overweight, will always struggle with being overweight. No matter if I am sporting a size 2 body for 10 years – the mindset, the habits, and tendencies will always be in me. I will always have to watch what I eat. Now that doesn’t mean every day all day, but just like last night I will have the ability to take one bad night and turn it in to a bad year or worse years. I will have to constantly monitor my food intake and my weight. I will have to make sure exercise is a part of my daily life not weekly or monthly or once every couple, my DAILY life. Going from being overweight to being healthy is not something with an end date. This is why diets won’t work for those with significant weight issues. If you have 5 pounds to lose, because you ate too many holiday cookies, then fine you add in an extra workout or two and say no to dessert for a couple weeks you can probably get there and stay there relatively easy. But if you have significant weight to lose, once you get to goal comes the next phase – the maintenance phase. You got there alright, but how are you going to stay there? Through monitoring your intake and your activity level. Yes, this is daunting and depressing to think about. But it is worth the effort. Also you can’t focus on forever, you can only focus on the first 1, 5 or 10 pounds.

Today I put on a dress I bought a couple months ago. At the time, it fit but it wasn’t the best at hiding the mommy pooch. (If you don’t already have kids you may not know what this is but it is a scientific term and it’s worse for the lucky ones that had a c-section too). Today I tried on the dress and it is great. Course the pooch is still there, but a lot less noticeable. So what does this all mean?? It means I have to get back on track today. I can’t let hormones derail me anymore at least this week! Today is a new day! Luckily for me, WW is a forgiving program. They even have extra weekly points built in for such occasions as last night.